It is summer time and that means continuing a “tradition.” Yes, it means it is time once again for an M/s immersion! Okay, so perhaps it doesn’t qualify as “tradition” yet as it will be just our second such “immersion,” but it is something I’ve been looking forward to for some time.
IMMERSION 2016 – a look back
I wrote about our immersion last year (Post 31. June Butterflies – 10 day Total Power Exchange and again Post 34. M/s immersion complete). What is definitely a tradition is that each summer my parents have my kids spend two weeks with them (of course, now it is mainly just my youngest). This has always been a time for Mike and I to have some unencumbered fun. Of course, what constitutes “fun” has been a little different since embracing Domestic Discipline.
IMMERSION 2017 – a look ahead
Like last year, Mike and I will experiment with taking our dynamic up a notch or two on the Dom/sub scale. A time to test limits and have extended uninterrupted “adult” time. This year will be a bit different as Kayla is now with us and Mike and I are another year wiser from our experiences. After all, this time last year we were just 15 months into our DD lifestyle, so now have almost TWICE the experience! What a difference a year makes.
We discuss what the Immersion will be like this year. I asked Mike to simply surprise me. No preconceived limitations, restrictions, or expectations on my part. I asked that he just feel free to explore his wildest fantasies and let me rely on safe words to communicate when a limit has been reached.
Kayla said she wanted the same from this immersion, with one addition. She really enjoyed the group dynamic of the party (Post 139. A very Adults-only Party) and she wants to explore being with several men at once, as long as both Mike and I are present. She said that in her fantasy, Mike and I just watch, neither of us participate. Thus, she asked if Mike could find “at least three” other men to be involved. Mike told her he would consider it and it would hinge on him finding the right guys to participate. John would be one, but the challenge is finding others we can trust. Two of the couples at the party were really great to hang around. We know that one of them only play together as a couple, so that leaves the man in the other couple to consider. So including John, perhaps we are at two good candidates.
I don’t have significant reservations about Kayla’s request. Not to say I don’t have concerns, but I know Mike takes this seriously and I am confident he will do what he can to make this live up to Kayla’s expectations. I know this is a big fantasy of Kayla’s and I am happy to help her experience it if we can have all the right controls. My biggest fear is actually Kayla having unrealistic expectations about it. If you’ve read my posts you know how I am about expectations. (Post 81. Expectations)
Thus, we all talked extensively about her request to ensure we are all “calibrated” as to her wants and desires. I feel Kayla has really matured in her thinking about her submission and sexuality. In six short months she has found tremendous confidence in sharing her fantasies and has shown discretion in separating pure fantasy from true desires.
We’ll see what comes of this. While Mike and I enjoyed the “vibe” of the party (sans Rudy), we are content with our dynamic and sex life such that we mostly just see complications and disappointments if we make such “parties” the norm for us. However Kayla wants to explore more and wants the comfort of our guidance and presence. We will see what comes of this.
Switching gears — Thinking about the immersion last year has me in a reflecting mood. It doesn’t really take much for that as I am a highly self-reflective person. It got me thinking more about my submission and thinking more deeply about certain ways I act or have acted.
One of things I was reflecting on is crying. While there have been plenty of exceptions, I don’t typically cry when I am punished. I almost always get a bit teary eyed, but the full on cry is atypical. Kayla, on the other hand, started out as a huge crier. Her cries have diminished but are still common place. She tends to have more like the semi-hyperventilating sniffles with lots of tears running down her cheeks versus a loud and boisterous cry.
There may be a tendency to equate crying with pain or sadness, but that is never the reason I cry, nor is the reason for Kayla’s crying. Both of us agree that the likelihood and degree of our crying is directly related to the degree of humility, remorse, and/or guilt we feel about the transgression that led to the punishment. I think Kayla feels those things more often and more intensely than I do because she is younger and puts more pressure on herself than I do. As such, she feels it more as a personal defeat than a temporary set back. For me, the feelings of humility, remorse, or guilt are compounded the most when it is a repeat offense. That leads me to a spanking story I haven’t shared that happened a few days ago.
Spanking Story (tease)
I was at the store and saw something I wanted to buy for the house. Our rules say I can only buy household items like food, toiletries, and cleaning supplies as long as it fits in the budget. Any other purchases required permission from Mike. If you aren’t familiar with the origins of this rule, read Post 71. Good Girl and Post 75. Public Display of Submission).
For whatever reason I wasn’t in a mindset to want to call Mike. Asking permission seemed trivial and it was so clear to me we could use this item. So, what did I do? Well, I didn’t buy it. . . but I still got punished! I’ll share the details on my next post!