Quick update – a few posts back I mentioned I am getting a hysterectomy. I rescheduled it until early November. I originally was going to have it Monday – which was the first day of school for J. I decided I would rather wait until we settled in on a school routine – Kayla is back in school as well – before having to be laid up for a few weeks. Yeah, a bit of a weak excuse. The reality is I just am not looking forward to it. But I will get it done this year. Mike was supportive of me rescheduling. Now, back to our regularly scheduled programming – – –
DESIRE VS FANTASY
Although I may slip up now and then and refer to a desire as a fantasy, I want to point out what these words have different meanings to us. We use the term “desire” for things we want to do. We reserve the word “fantasy” for things we enjoy thinking about, but wouldn’t really want to do. This goes way back to an early post (Post 16). Funny, reading that post today gives me a chuckle. We have become so comfortable sharing our sexual thoughts, dreams, desires, and fantasies that I forget that it used to be uncomfortable to do so.
MIKE’S DAIRY DESIRE
Read the prior post if you haven’t. And now, I’ll get right to it. Nurse Ann, or more accurately, Nursing Ann. Yes, she is lactating.
Adult breast-feeding has long been a desire of Mike’s, but I didn’t learn about it until about three years ago when we started opening up about such things. Pity he didn’t share this fantasy back when I was breastfeeding. But I also was in a different mindset and may have rejected the notion at that time. I am so happy we can be open about such things now. Ever since he told me of this desire I’ve kept it in the back of my mind, hopeful that I would come across the opportunity to help him fulfill it. Well, now it’s done!
By the time Mister and Nurse Ann arrived early one morning, the rest of our entourage (John, Donna, Matt) had been with us at the rental for about two days. Matt was leaving soon and John and Donna would be leaving after lunch. Matt left soon after we wrapped up our “orgy,” leaving me, Matt, Kayla, John, and Donna with our new acquaintances.
We were all naked, including Nurse Ann, who disrobed and masturbated as she watched all the sexual activities. Mike then told us that they weren’t here just for the sex, and that Nurse Ann was here to breast feed “us.” Yes, while her primary purpose was to fulfill Mike’s desire to breastfeed, we all would have a turn.
Mike went into the bedroom alone with Nurse Ann as he wanted it to be a more private experience. In addition to nursing on Ann, she gave him a hand job. I guess her and Mister don’t consider that sex re the “no sex with Ann” edict. To each their own.
Mike told me to go next, and he came into the bedroom with me and watched. I already knew what to expect taste-wise as I had tasted my own breast milk way back when. Yep, no change. If you’ve never tried it I imagine it is a bit like taking a glass of milk, warming it, adding some water and adding a touch of sugar. Yeah, watered down sweet milk, but not too watered down as the taste isn’t watery, just less, well, what’s the word? Less cow milky? Ha! That made me do a google search. Here’s someone’s description that I thought was worth sharing.
I enjoyed it, both for myself and because I know Mike enjoyed watching. I enjoyed looking up into Ann’s eyes as I suckled and the look on her face. I knew it was doing something for me sexually as I felt the moisture between my legs. Mike could sense it as a few minutes into it he told me to finger myself. He told me I had couldn’t stop sucking until I came. I eventually did, but not until she reached down with her hand and began fingering me.
Nurse Ann then needed a break to recharge. This gave us the opportunity to learn more about her and Mister.
MISTER AND ANN
They have two kids who were staying at grandparents (how familiar!), but they are older and not breastfeeding. Turns out that while she did breastfeed them when they were babies, she stopped and her milk supply subsequently dried up. A few years ago she “expressed” (hee-hee, that’s a breast-feeding joke), to her husband that she wanted to lactate as she, in her words said, she “wanted him to feed from her breasts.”
She actually induced milk production without getting pregnant. She said it took about five months of work before she started producing, and then the production increased to where it is today – about three to four ounces every three to four hours. A supply on par with someone nursing a baby. And her and her husband have always had a kinky sex life that included other couples, that eventually she decided to continue producing milk as sort of their “thing” in TTWD.
We learned that at one time they were into full swapping, but evolved to where he is free to have sex with women as long as she is present, and she will only masturbate and watch or manually stimulate other men or women (check, check, and check). Mister did say one downside to this kink is that sometimes her breasts and nipples get very tender, but that also is part of the pleasure she gets. He quipped, “it’s hard to explain why they pain is also the pleasure,” to which I was quick to retort, “You don’t have to explain that to us!”
I was intrigued by the concept of inducing lactation. Apparently it just takes a combination of the right stimulation and herbal supplements (there are also prescription drugs). I’ve since googled it and found adoptive mothers often do this and in some cultures, the grandmother does it as a way to provide a backup to the mother. Who knew?
I later said to Mike, “Sir, before the idea goes any further, I am calling ‘red’ on trying to get me to induce lactation.” He smiled and admitted the thought crossed his mind but he wasn’t going to ask me to do it. For one, we’ve been talking about me getting a breast reduction (which I’ve put off until some time next year due to my upcoming hysterectomy), and I can’t be lactating. The other is my boobs are big and droopy enough – I don’t need them engorged and swollen ever again!
Kayla half-jokingly said she would be willing to try if it meant gaining a cup size, but Mike said he wouldn’t want her to do so with the warm and loving reply of “No need to stretch those puppies as they are perfect as they are.” hee hee. Also, apparently it is much more challenging to induce lactation if you have never lactated previously – although I don’t know that for a fact, but it must be true as I read it somewhere on the internet!
OTHERS GET A TURN
Ann was ready to feed again by early afternoon. Thus Kayla, John, and Donna got a turn. Kayla was smitten. She really loved it. She quickly asked if she could do it again. Mike said the plan was that we would all get the opportunity to do it at least once more and after that, it would be up to Nurse Ann to allow more.
The second time around John declined and said, “Kayla can have mine if that’s okay.” Which it was. Mister and Nurse Ann stayed with us that entire day and spent the night, leaving early the next morning. John and Donna left that afternoon. Me, Mike, Kayla, and Mister had sex again before the night was done, and Kayla fed on Nurse Ann’s breasts a few more times.
When it was time for bed, Kayla asked Mike and Miss Ann if she could have one more feeding before going to sleep. She also asked if it could just be her and Miss Ann. Up to that point me and Mike always watched. Mike and Miss Ann agreed. Mike and I went to our bedroom and Mister to his, leaving Miss Ann and Kayla alone in the living room.
Quite some time had passed so Mike went out to the living room to see what was going on. Miss Ann smiled at Mike as she was cradling Kayla’s head next to her breast. Kayla was asleep. She had completely drained one breast and had switched sides to suckle on the other and ended up falling asleep. Mike motioned to Miss Ann to wait just a minute as he went to get me from the bedroom so I could see this.
Mike felt this was a perfect transition to the next day which was Kayla’s DDlg/ABDL day.
He lifted Kayla up in his arms and carried her like baby. She woke up and he told her to just relax. He put her down on the floor outside the bathroom and gave her a sponge bath, then picked her up again and took her over to this pallet he had put together in the bedroom to serve as a makeshift crib for her. He diapered her and covered her up and kissed her goodnight.
And thus Mike coined our 2018 Immersion as the “Got Milk?” Immersion!
I am very happy that Mike got to fulfill this desire, and that Kayla enjoyed it so much and connected with the DDlg role play to the point she wants to do more of it. I got a lot of our Got Milk Immersion as well, but it was much different from what I got out of last year’s “Forbidden Zone.”
Last year was more about testing boundaries and exploring an M/s dynamic. While this year included many of those same elements, while fun, they were less revealing since we had already done them. And we had the mindset we weren’t looking to explore even deeper, darker, Master/slave activities. The most important revelation from this year’s Immersion is that, as I shared in Post 272, I one-hundred percent feel like I have arrived! In that post I shared where it is that I arrived – but it may be interesting to share how I realized I was finally there.
It may be interesting, then again, it may be stupid. Such is the risk I take at being vulnerable and sharing my thoughts. Next post!!
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