The party went very well and was a lot of fun. I’ll post more about it but had already started writing this one and wanted to finish it up and get it posted.
I’ve been having a few “WAID” thoughts lately regarding my Domestic Discipline. Those thoughts of “What Am I Doing?” I haven’t had those thoughts in quite a while. I think the last time I posted about it was the last time I had these thoughts, and that was 18 months ago (Post 133. Intense Punishment).
And just as I stated in Post 133, I believe occasional doubt is healthy. I’ll simply restate much of what I wrote in that intro — Doubt is simply a lack of knowledge. Often this is momentary, and the knowledge you need can often be found in a short, honest, conversation with yourself. Sometimes it may take a bit more than a moment of reflection, but typically not much more, at least for me.
Any doubts I have ever had about Domestic Discipline have always ended up as being self-affirming. Those doubts always lead me to a deeper appreciate for what submission has done for me and for my family. WAID doesn’t last long, and once again, it didn’t last very long this time. It was a little longer, maybe a day or two, but only because I have been so busy that I didn’t have the self-reflection time to really think things through.
And like last time, it was some punishments that likely got me in the mood to reassess things. I’ll share the two
EMAIL PAST CURFEW
Typically I am to be in bed by 10:15, and have thirty minutes to write in my journal. I am not to get on my phone or laptop. I often fit in my “internet” time during the day, or maybe, if Mike allows it, in the evening after dinner and evening chores are done. Occasionally when we have a long day and I ask, he lets me get on the computer late a night before going to sleep. Point is, yeah, I’ve got rules around sleep hygiene and computer/phone time.
Well, one night I was done journaling, turned off my lamp, and double checked that I had my alarm set on my phone and turned off my lamp. This is something I do all the time, but for some reason, I had this urge to look at my email. Just a quick look.
Well, I saw an email from someone and it begged for a response. I mean, they didn’t beg for response – they would have been fine hearing from me the next day. It was me! I just had this urge to response. I could have got up and asked Mike for permission, but that seemed like a lot of effort, he might say no, and I was tired. I further justified it because it would be a very short response. So I responded.
I knew I earned myself a spanking, and decided I would tell Mike in the morning and I went to sleep. In the morning, I told Mike.
I was spanked – very hard. The cane marks lasted for almost a week. Mike increased the punishment because I knew it was against the rules and had time to consider the consequences and still choose to check my email.
Of all my rules, this is one that is easy to dismiss as silly or childish. I’ll grant you it seems silly or childish that an adult needs such rules, but, I need it. It took making a commitment to myself and to Mike to get me to adhere to good sleep hygiene. Pre-DD I often stayed up very late, long after Mike went to bed. Watching tv, going online, or even cleaning. Having home schooled J and being with him all day, then commiserating with Mike a bit after J went to sleep, it was finally my time to decompress.
Getting good sleep is so underrated. Pre-DD I was clearly sleep deprived for years, and it has a cumulative effect on health – mental and physical. Getting good sleep is one of the best rules I have, and it is simple – despite the occasional temptations to violate the rule.
SPANKING THE JELLY
I found this video. In fact, there are several videos of people spanking jelly? People can be so weird! I am talking about something normal. . .about being spanked over a jar of jelly,
I went to make Mike some toast with jelly, a normal part of his breakfast, and there was only a small amount of jelly left, not enough for a serving. There isn’t a specific rule about keeping the house supplied with certain foods or condiments, but it is understood as an expectation of Mike’s. I am required to be “optimized” in my household duties and running out of something that Mike like is clearly not optimal.
I was spanked. A combination of a good hand spanking and his belt. It wasn’t particularly hard, but came while my butt was still smarting from the caning from the curfew spanking.
I believe there were a couple of things that prompted my WAID thoughts.
One was the “minor” nature of these spankings. I can’t think of the right word. “Minor” is relative. All violations of my Duties and Obligations are big deals, and all are important to adhere to. I don’t have any trivial rules as far as I am concerned. Having said that, there are some rules that are simple to adhere to, and thus, could be called “minor” rules. These are both “no-brainer” rules that are easy to adhere to, and I failed to do so.
Two, is that I had been reflecting on the last year. Our one-year anniversary of our latest contract was on October 17. This year went by so fast! And since we only made it for 18 months, I can’t believe that in six months we will be talking about possible revisions. So my mind already started thinking about what I might want to change. Thus, I was already in a mindset of asking myself what I really wanted going forward. I think this predisposed me to switch that mindset to “What am I doing?” at the first opportunity.
These spankings provided that opportunity.
And once again, that reflection led me to the conclusion that what I am doing is exactly what I need to be doing. It is the right thing for me and for my family. And as for possible changes in March, at this point, I can only think of one. I might want to codify something in our “sex clause” regarding future cuck activities. Keep in mind I always have the right to say no. The purpose of codifying things is to better set expectations between me and Mike. Other than that, I can’t think of anything else I’d consider changing. Not even the consequences of getting spanked over curfew rules or jelly!
I love my Domestic Discipline. I love being submissive to Mike. I love all aspects of our life and all the relationships we have.