8 thoughts on “363. IRRATIVE PROCESS PART 1 – WHY I SUBMIT”

  1. ” Put your true self out there and your life will consist of those who enjoy that version of you.”

    I thought of you last week, Jen. I’m having fairly serious back problems and at the dr’s office I was pretty much myself with everyone, honest and open, sharing how scared I was, my deepest fears, what it might mean for my future, and letting my tears flow. I think that authenticity connected with everyone I interacted with. I felt it, and when the time came for follow-up appointments and a shot, the folks behind the counters said they were all booked up. Until the folks that “knew me” said “wait a minute.” Whispered conversations, calling the doctor over, and all of a sudden, I had the dr’s cell phone number, they squeezed me in for a shot, and checked in on me every minute.

    I share this not as a strategy, but as an example of how authenticity impacts people, and creates a sense of connection, even in the most mundane of situations.

    (The shot helped and we’re in ‘wait and see’ mode. Decisions about surgery have been pushed down the road a few more days.)


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    1. Sorry you are having to go through that. I am touched that you thought of me in that experience. People don’t always remember things about others who they interact with in daily life, except one thing – people almost always remember how someone else made them feel. And when you are authentic and vulnerable, people (the right people) feel empathy, compassion, and honored that you shared an intimate part of yourself (i.e. your feelings).
      Good luck with your back. I know back issues can be difficult to resolve. Sounds like you’ve got a great dr tending to you.

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  2. Hey! Thanks for posting! I’ve been looking through your posts for the past week.
    I like to relentlessly introspect, and turn my musings into rants as well! I can relate to a lot of what you’ve said. I’m still a student at university, and if something doesn’t go perfect with my schoolwork, or with anything I do, it directly diminishes my self-worth for some reason. 😛 Even though I (egotistically) find myself to be good-looking, funny and smart, my self-esteem paradoxically doesn’t seem to work for me.
    Also, I think it’s awesome that you’ve found something that makes you happy! Your inquisitive spirit and openness is very admirable! I also love the little jokes and sass you throw into your posts! Feel free to email me just for friendly chats if you have time! If you don’t, that’s completely fine as well!
    As for the last part, I’d like to say, “Since when has anything Jen posted been anything but good?” 😉

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    1. Thank you for your kindness. Self esteem can be a challenge. I’ve found that truth will attract the right people in your life. Truth in who you are, how you feel, what makes you tick, your insecurities, the works. Put your true self out there and your life will consist of those who enjoy that version of you.

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    1. Thank you Kristy. That means a lot. Much of my motivation to post isn’t about “look at me” (okay, maybe a little), but about showing others who can relate to some parts of my life that they are not alone. Good luck in your journey wherever it takes you!

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