This is my last post. . . .
talking about my hiatus! lol.
Of course, I am going to keep blogging! I am too into me to stop! There’s plenty of domestic discipline debauchery to dole out to you – at a slower pace. It’s just that I had an epiphany that helped me understand what I think was at the core of my lack of motivation to blog. And that realization has actually helped increase my interest in blogging again.
SEEK TO UNDERSTAND BEFORE BEING UNDERSTOOD
In the past, I couldn’t wait to write about a blogworthy topic that popped in my head. Now? Meh. In a prior post, I shared reasons behind the multi-month respite and slower pace of blogging. But recently I came to realize there was another reason, a more compelling and powerful reason than what I previously stated.
I’ve always been a bit of a loudmouth, quick to share my thoughts about any topic. You’d think I would have been an awful guidance counselor, but I behaved differently in a clinical setting. I was good with the open-ended questions to help people “find their truth” or reconcile some internal conflict. But I’ve always been quick to share what’s on my mind outside of that setting. There is a mantra of “Seek to understand before being understood.” I love this saying, but I rarely followed it.
When we adopted Domestic Discipline almost 5 years ago, it was one of the things I wanted to improve about myself. I knew reigning in my reflex to demand to be heard would help make me a better wife, mother, sister, friend, you name it. My blog became one place where I didn’t have to reign that it. I could go on a rant about anything at any time, such as An Esoteric Ramble, or a politically fueled, We Are Not Okay, But We Will Be.
It was my interactions on the site I mentioned in the last post, Sister’s in Submission, that woke me up to the fact I once again was going down a path of seeking to be understood before understanding others. I realized I was not only too quick to throw in my two cents on a topic, but my responses seemed to have the effect of shutting down dialogue, not continuing it. Of course, I’d like to think it is because my responses were so thought out that they resonated with everyone’s “truth” thus there was simply nothing left for anyone to add. That MUST be the reason. Either that or it was because I was dominating the conversation, not furthering it. Hum. Maybe the latter?
And I noticed this old habit started appearing IRL. With friends, family, coworkers, and yes, even with Mike. (BTW, I’ll talk about my new job at some point. It’s part-time).
So I decided that while I would still chime in now and then, I would be less demonstrative and more suggestive in my online responses. I also recommitted to myself to be a better listener with everyone I interacted with, whether it was online or IRL.
And I loved it!
I was getting something rewarding and fulfilling out of being quieter – out of “seeking to understand before being understood.” I was enjoying reading what other people had to say, being more inquisitive in my statements versus pushing my own conclusions. It was nice hearing a different voice than my own. And thus, the thought of “telling all” or ranting via my blog no longer motivated me.
Also, I think there is some level of authority we all give to someone who goes on and on about a particular topic, in my case, Domestic Discipline. And as I stated, I felt a bit intimidated with my million views and sex blogger ranking. Like, don’t listen to me. I am no expert. I do consider myself an expert on MY LIFE, but no one else’s. I told myself, “Jen, just shut up already!” So I did!
YAWN. ENOUGH! GIVE US SEXY TIME!
But now my “quiet period is over. No need to “be quiet.” Maybe quieter, but not quiet. As I stated in a prior post, I needed to “get over myself.” My obscure little blog is not intended to change the worldview on human sexuality, gender roles, marriage, or kink. It’s simply a way for me to think through things while scratching my itch to be a bit of an exhibitionist (and for some of you more pervy folks, maybe masturbatory fodder).
With that – guess what? We’ve been making plans for Immersion 2020. It’s become an “event” in our Circle of Trust where people have planned to take time off work – a bit of a sexual exploration vacation! The guys are coordinating a “Swap-fest” of sorts where we will be spending some meaningful one-on-one time with other members of our group. As in, spending the evening and night with someone other than your significant other(s). I don’t know all the details and will happily share them when I do.
AND — we are about a month away from our FIVE YEAR DD-VERSARY. That’s right! Five years of committing to a Domestic Discipline dynamic. And there is still a lot I’d love to fill you in on regarding the last several months. More blogging to come!
NEXT: 339. Jenny-job, Mean Mike, the Platinum Rule, a Jenny thing, and some other stuff
6 thoughts on “338. Jen, just shut up already!”
You are great xx hey- this is my first comment- sorry for lurking, but I’ve being reading your blog for a long time and I wanted to throw you some positive reinforcement- you are amazing! I’m Chelle- and peeping at your thoughts has coincided with getting into a sort-of DD situation- not as crazy as yours, but give us time 😉
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks for lurking! Comment anytime! Good luck in your DD journey!
Time does fly quickly. It hardly seems that long at all. lol. I will continue to look forward to your rare posts…
LikeLiked by 1 person
I like that mantra… thank you for sharing. 5 years – wow an amazing thing.
LikeLiked by 1 person
That’s a huge epiphany! Nice. I’m glad you’re still blogging. I’m looking forward to reading more. 😊
Congrats on nearly 5 years. That’s not easy. Hope to hear more about it!
LikeLiked by 2 people