I haven’t been posting much, partly due to the summer always being a busy time. School starts soon and I expect I’ll be back to posting more regularly. In addition to summer being busy, things just haven’t been all that noteworthy on the DD front.
RIDING THE POSITIVITY WAVE
I’ve been on a very positive-vibe “wave” ever since we started our Mini-Maintenance Thursdays about two months ago. Those sessions helped me achieve the greater submissive mindset I wanted. As shared in that post, I had this yearning to not just act submissively, but to think more submissively and rid myself of non-submissive impulses.
It was not going well until Mike came up with those mini-maintenance sessions that serve as a sort of confessional for me. Those sessions relieved the pressure and sense of failure I was having whenever I had a non-submissive thought. These weekly sessions provide accountability in a format that is more a celebration of my progress than it is a condemnation of the failures. Well, to the extent a pretty hard spanking is a celebration — but it is! It has been just the thing to help me.
I am feeling very triumphant right now. I love being submissive. Being a sub removes all the complexities of life and gives me one singular focus. A focus on losing myself, to regain and reclaim myself so I can live and love life to the fullest. In looking back at what prompted me to take this journey I can say, “Mission Accomplished.” Or more appropriately, SUBmission Accomplished!
I am not so naive that I believe this wave is constant. It will ebb and flow and I am sure there will be some surprises and down moments, because, well, that’s life! Whether you live a DD lifestyle or not, life still happens. There will be ups and down, but mostly ups! And I am certainly enjoying this particular crest and hope to ride it as long as possible.
So, since not much going on with me, I’ll give an update on Kayla, with her permission of course. I’ll think I’ll keep this post short, and give you that update on the next one.