Laying in bed the other day, sore nipples and butt, with a lingering soapy taste in my mouth, I had the “WAID” thought. The thought of “What Am I Doing?” I’ve had this thought a few times. I believe occasional doubt is healthy. Doubt is simply a lack of knowledge. Often this is momentary, and the knowledge can be found in a short conversation with yourself. Other times it may take a bit more than a moment of reflection, but for me, any doubts about DD have always been self affirming regarding my choice to live this lifestyle. My doubts have always led to a deeper appreciation for what DD has done for me and my family. WAID never lasts more than a few minutes, and it was no different this time.
I’ve shared a couple of the more severe punishments I’ve received, and there haven’t been many. Although I didn’t use my safe word, this punishment topped any I had before, even the one I shared in 24. Intense Spanking , although I didn’t er had to use a safe word this time. As our son J is home, the punishments were done throughout the day while he was at school or in the evening after he was asleep.
As I think about it, this one wasn’t the worst in terms of pain. It was the worst in terms of overall discomfort. In some ways, lingering discomfort or anticipation of what is to come is worst than a moment of acute pain.
I am not that good at sharing punishment stories. It isn’t my “thing.” I’d much rather be waxing philosophical about events in my life than sharing the specific details. Mike says it is because just stating what happens in my life is a very vulnerable thing to do, as it leaves more to interpretation of the reader, and those interpretations may be unfavorable. A very interesting comment that I want to explore further, but I’ll wait to ponder that one for another post. So with that ,here’s the punishment I received.
Mike started me off with a mouth soaping, figuring it was appropriate for me opening my mouth and sharing what I shared with my friends. For a soaping, I open my mouth and stick out my tongue. Mike rubs an already wet and lathered bar of soap all over my tongue. I then open wide and he rubs it all around the roof of my mouth, cheeks, and scrapes it across my teeth. He then has me bite down on the bar to hold it in place in my mouth.
He then used a lot of our new implements from our recent Joy Box additions. With soap in my mouth, he used our new cupping system on my breasts. He applied some oil to my breasts, attached some small nipple clamps to my nipples, then applied the cups. They provide a lot of suction on the breasts. In the short run you don’t really feel much, but it gets increasingly uncomfortable overtime. More blood rushes to the breast and they get a pinkish-purple like hue. He then had me stand in the corner with my hands clasped behind my head. I was then spanked as I stood there, first by hand, then with various paddles and straps. Mike inserted a butt plug in me and left me in the corner for an hour. By far the worst part was holding the soap in my mouth and standing in one place. By the end of the hour I was a drooling mess and my jaw was sore.
He then walked me to the shower and using the hand nozzle he sprayed me down with cold water to clear the suds and drool from my face, chest, stomach, and legs. He pulled the cups off my breasts and replaced the small nipple clamps with another pair that are far more intense and he adjusted them to be extremely tight. He had me lay down on my stomach on the bathroom floor and got out the new cleansing system he ordered. This was my first enema.
I anticipated it would be uncomfortable, but I didn’t anticipate the degree of the pressure and cramping. Mike made me hold it in for five minutes, but it felt like much more. He spanked me a few more times and then allowed me to get on the pot and get it out. After I was done, he repeated the enema and spanking. Then he did a third enema and had me hold it in for even longer before expelling. He then finally removed the nipple clamps, but the respite for my nipples was short.
Mike got our nipple suckers, applied them to my nipples and pumped, and pumped some more. He pumped more than I thought they could even be pumped. I’ve never seen my nipples get so big. He returned to me to the corner where I stood again with hands clasped behind my head. Mike told me I was not to leave the corner for any reason else more punishment. Well, I soon learned that the effects of an enema can last awhile and it wasn’t long before I just had to use the toilet. I was clenching and holding as long as I could, and just about the time I was ready to give in and leave the corner (I wasn’t about to make a mess of things. I’ll take the added punishment), Mike entered the room. I didn’t say anything as I am not to speak unless spoken to, but luckily Mike asked me how I was doing. I told him I needed to go and thankfully he let me.
When I was done he removed the suckers and ran the pinwheel hard over my very large nipples for what seemed like a long time, but probably wasn’t. He then went back to the put the cups and applied them to my breasts. Mike decided to break in another new toy, the anal beads. I’ve never used anal beads before. It is one of those progressive sets, and he put all but the last one inside me. Thankfully even the largest one isn’t crazy big. Big enough for sure and I was glad he didn’t insert that one, but this set of beads is what I would call an intermediate set. Whatever you call it, it still call it uncomfortable to have them in for an extended time. He then had me stand in the corner again and he left, returning in about 45 minutes.
He removed the cups and again added the suckers. He ordered me on all fours and he played awhile with the beads, pulling them out, inserting them, pulling out, inserting. He took my hand and helped me to my feet and walked me over to a chair. He sat down, put me over his knee, and spanked me by hand for what seemed like forever – had to be over 100 of various intensities.
He then did another enema and this time when he took the tube out, I was surprised as I immediately felt a butt plug being inserted. Mike grabbed the bar of soap and administered another mouth soaping. I was then walked over to the shower. He told me to stand in the shower with my hands clasped behind my head, bar of soap in my mouth, with a rectum full of warm water. Mike told me not to leave the tub and he would be back “at some point.” He came in a few times to check on me and each time he didn’t say a word and then left. At some point I just couldn’t hold it any longer. I pushed the plug and water out. At least after several enemas it was basically just water.
Once I expelled the water, my mind became more aware of my painful nipples. They were burning. I was so uncomfortable that I started to cry. Not from any specific pain, but just because I felt miserable, both emotionally and physically. Expelled water from my ass, terrible soap in my mouth and soapy drool all down my body, nipples on fire, a sore bottom from the spankings, a bit crampy from the enemas, and a sore sphincter from all the clenching.
Mike returned and said, “I’ll be right back.” He left and returned very shortly with Kayla. He told Kayla to remove the suckers, clean me up, and dry me off. He watched as she showered and then dried me off. “Almost done,” he said.
With Kayla there, he had me state what I did to earn this “reward.” He then gave a lecture. He does this sometimes, usually near the end of a punishment. It’s his way of recapping the events that brought on the punishment, making sure they remained top of mind. He then told Kayla to get the prison strap and the cane. He walked me over to the bed and had me lay down on my stomach. He then took the strap from Kayla and struck me, then handed it back to Kayla and took the cane and struck me, and then alternated back and forth for I think just five strikes with each item. It wasn’t many, but they were very hard and were more than enough. I cried, which again is uncommon for me, but it happens.
We then had our “closing ceremony” complete with aftercare, with one caveat. Mike said we would repeat our entire morning again tomorrow PLUS that night and the next I would spend thirty minutes in the corner with the clamps on, followed by a spanking before bedtime. Only then would the punishment be fully over. As bad as the punishment itself was, the anticipation of knowing it would be repeated was just as bad. Anticipation of a punishment, especially one this long and intense, is a punishment itself.
And when it was all finally over, it was truly over. What I did was fully behind us, like always. No lingering resentments. All is forgiven. Oh, and Mike added, “You know, if you just would have asked me beforehand, I am pretty sure I would have been fine with you telling your friends whatever you felt comfortable sharing with them.”