Two posts in one day!
This one is to follow up on a prior post .
So, Donna came over this afternoon and we were able to talk about things. I joked to her that I thought I saw a stray hair and that perhaps she needed to check me again. We weren’t in a position to do anything sexual as my son was home, so it was just all in fun.
I told her that I owed her an orgasm and wanted to return the favor the next time we were together. She said she would ask John. I told her I wanted to know if she was asking only because I was asking, or if she was actually interested. She told me that she is not attracted to women, but, she is curious and she knows she won’t dislike it, even if it isn’t her thing. She said she felt safe with me and, simply put, love to have sex with me. Yea!
That led our conversation to the guys. I told her Mike planned to talk to John about us swapping. Donna said her and John had the same conversation and were open to it.
Wow, so there it is. Now, although I brag how I lack modesty, I am uneasy about blogging about this. This is a big deal to me to share. I am not uneasy about actually doing it. I think Mike and I will have a blast and it will only add to our sex life. I look forward to watching him and being watched by him. But, for some reason I am fine with sharing stories of my submission, of my masturbating for an audience, being spanked, etc. But talking about swinging and swapping reveals a part of me that is different.
Blogging has anonymity, so it isn’t about being “found out.” It is about the persona I want to reflect in this blog. For some reason I am fully comfortable with the whole submissive persona, but not swinging and swapping. I am sure it is my own hang ups regarding what that “means.” Of course, it doesn’t mean anything. It doesn’t define me. Ultimately I reconciled whether or not to share this by recognizing my aim is not to portray a specific persona. It is to just portray my journey, good, bad, or otherwise.
So, Mike and John are talking tonight and we’ll figure out what’s next. My guess is we will use our next visit to their house as our opportunity to make it happen. It could be this weekend but more likely will be the next weekend as we have a regularly scheduled “date night” (i.e. a sitter lined up) for next weekend.
That gives Mike and me a lot of time to talk about it, as well as time for me to talk more with Donna. I don’t know if that is a good thing. I believe we shouldn’t over think it. I wish it would have been more spontaneous and not something we had to plan. Oh well, what do I know? This is new to me. Anticipation!