I am about 14 months into our DD lifestyle and suffice to say a lot has changed and for the better. In a way that only DD can, I have willing surrendered a part of myself, trusting Mike in a way that is unimaginable to many people. As a result I have connected with myself and with Mike in a deeply reflective and intimate manner. I am more content than ever with who I am as a person, a wife, a mother, a sister, an aunt, and a friend. Things have settled into a routine, with a “Reward” for my occasional transgression.
A few times I’ve actually gone a week without any Rewards. It’s funny, but I look forward to the Maintenance Session on those weeks. Yes, there is something addictive about the spankings. They are much like a drug.
I am more organized and calm in my thoughts. I especially feel it on the days that are particularly demanding. Instead of feeling wiped out and emotionally spent, while I may still be physically tired, I remain upbeat, optimistic, and never defeated by the days events. That is in stark contrast to my days before DD.
Okay, enough reflection. On my next post I will share my toughest day with DD. It was my most severe “Reward” for a severe transgression. Suffice to say Mike did an incredible job delivering a reward that was appropriate, but boy did it hurt.
